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So today on my lunch break, I pull out my camera for some random reason, and my boyfriend is like, hey let me look at your pictures.. After looking at some of them, he comes across some from LAST winter, and there is a picture of me in black sofee shorts with just a hoodie on, its a mirror picture that I took of myself.. Well he says “Wow, look at your legs!” and Im just like what? And he’s all, they were so tiny.. I like them how they are now. I was like WOW, THANKS FOR TELLING ME MY LEGS ARE FAT NOW!!!! I was seriously about to go puke, and just bawl my eyes out.. He doesnt understand how careful he has to be with the things he says. And later on after that, he was making fun of the capri’s I had on, talking about how girls wear tight jeans and stuff, so he goes to pinch my capri’s, and like show how tight they are, well he’s like DAMN, are those cutting your circulation off?! Made me even more upset :( I need to get my hands on some diet pills :( good ones, but im not 18, FML! I hate this, IM SO UPSET! Im going to be doing squats till I die.. Ive been sitting here staring at that picture for hours.. Im so miserable. I hate myself. I wish I could just tell everyone how I really think about my body, and food and things, so I wouldnt ever get hurt like this, because people would be more cautious with what they say.. I just want to go curl up in a ball and wake up in two weeks so ill never even think about eating.. Maybe after two weeks of no food, which is what I deserve, ill be out of my misery.
